Fiendish Confessions

4:59AM - I'm tired like... a tired person.

I was writing up this reply on the soundwave forum on my opinion of genre classification with regards to 'indie', but the thread was locked before I had the opportunity to post. I figure I will just paste it here as an entry because I find it pretty interesting and no one reads my blog except me anyway, so who cares.

Kimbie says: "Isn't 'indie' technically not a genre, seeing as it is short for 'independant'; and therefore just applies to all bands that are independant from a label :/

this is a genuine question by the way"

Josh146 says: "Technically.

People still label bands such as Bloc Party and Kings of Leon as indie which I guess is some sub genre of alternative/rock bands?"

My thoughts on the topic are that indie is the alternative of the 00s with respect to the argument of whether or not is should be a genre name.

Alternative theoretically isn't a genre either cause I mean... alternative to what? Alternative rock? As opposed to rock? LOL

Really though, Alternative Rock and Indie-Rock may have originally literally meant what their titles suggested, but now they have become genre titles.

The way I see it is there is your broad 'Rock' genre, under that there are a whole heap of larger sub-genres (punk-rock, blues-rock, arena rock, alternative rock, progressive rock, heavy metal, country rock, etc. etc.). Then under these sub-genres of rock, there are more sub-genres. For example under punk-rock, there are sub-genres like Riot Grrrl, Hardcore, Art-Punk, Christian Punk, Emo, Skate Punk, etc. etc.. On top of these sub-genres, there are also fusion genres, such as anti-folk (a fusion of punk-rock and folk music), cowpunk (a fusion of country rock and punk-rock), etc.

When it comes to alternative rock, it pretty much covers the genres of music that have been influenced by 80s punk rock, although some music from before the 80s can also be described as alternative rock too. So a lot of sub-genres of Alternative Rock will also be found as sub-genres for other types of rock too. Crossover effect and all. Indie-rock is a sub-genre of alternative rock that has its own sub-genres because Indie-rock was originally used for its literal meaning as it covered sub-genres that found their homes on independent labels (shoegazing, post-rock, math-rock, lo-fi, etc.), but now some of the bands in these genres have moved to major labels and thus made quite the contradiction for genre labeling. I still consider them indie-rock when I'm talking about genres.

The bands Josh gave as an example are lazily called indie because it's more simple to call them that instead of calling them a fusion of; Southern Rock, Garage Rock Revival, Alternative Rock & Indie Rock (Kings of Leon) and Post-Punk Revival, Indie Rock, Alternative Rock & Indie-electronic (Bloc Party). You can see why people often give up trying to think about it and just try not to label things at all and just enjoy the music without thinking about it. I like to think about genres as it is a great starting point on finding artists similar to those you already know and enjoy and it makes for good discussion when people actually want to talk about it.




In other news:
Yesterday, around 7pm, I made the drive down to Melbourne to see the Fleet Foxes. 2 hours of driving (which were enjoyable as I was blasting Queen Sarah Saturday (Weave), Bush (Sixteen Stone), Candlebox (Candlebox), Tonic (Lemon Parade) and Fleet Foxes (Fleet Foxes)), an hour and a bit of train and tram rides later, I was at the Prince Bandroom. I got there right as Fleet Foxes were about to start which was great timing. They sounded fucking amazing, even better than they sound on the album, which was surprising because I got the idea that there was a lot of post-production work on the album to enhance the harmonies and dream-pop-like vocals. I guess I was wrong because they were dead on. They pretty much played the whole album and the between-song banter, where they talked about being in an elevator with Flava Flav earlier that day, other Melbourne music venues and internet acronyms, was entertaining and often funny.

If it weren't for the looming transport issues in which I had to leave before the end of the encore to ensure I would catch the tram and last train back to my car in Craigieburn, I probably would have enjoyed the gig a lot more. Melbourne public transport is bullshit. For a start, what kind of a moron city doesn't have a train going to the airport. Secondly, if you need to get a ticket for a tram, you cannot pay by note, only coins, which I did not know, so I rode the tram for free. Vic-Rail (or whatever they call themselves) be damned. Cunts.

I got back to my house at around 3:30am. Probably would have been quicker if I wasn't driving around 10km/h under the speed limit on the freeway due to being spooked by the multitudes of dead kangaroos all over the road and the horror stories of hitting kangaroos. I didn't end up seeing any live ones on my journey, but there was a giant wombat crossing the road (in the other lane when I passed him) at one point. On the way home I blasted The Billionaires (Really Real For Forever), Hanson (Middle of Nowhere), Port O'Brien (All We Could Do Was Sing) and Jimmy Eat World (Bleed American).



I am back to getting two shifts per week at work again now the silly season is over, which is probably a good thing because I have an assignment due Tuesday and a big online exam type thing due a week and two days later, plus a Dr Dog/Gomez/The Black Keys concert on the 10th, Throwing Muses gig on the 15th and over 6 days at the end of the month; a Melvins gig, two Ani DiFranco gigs and Laneway Festival. Then three exams to prepare for from the 9th to the 13th. Busy Busy.

I think in my next post I'll give a highlights reel of my Mackay/Brisbane trip and Kylie Minogue concert last month. That's it for now.

6:22AM - My Emiliana Torrini Trip

So I decided on Monday night that I would drive down to Melbourne (well, the most northern suburb of Melbourne with a train station) on Tuesday afternoon to see Emiliana Torrini that night. I would have caught the train down and back, but the last train leaves Southern Cross station to Bendigo at 10:25m while the gig was scheduled to end at 10:45. I could have hung around in the city from 11 til 6am to catch the early train back home, but I heard doing that sucks. So driving was the plan. I left later than I anticipated, and took a couple of wrong turns, one big time and I had no idea where I was going and had to stop to ask some road workers, but I got to Craigieburn about 15 mins before I had to be there which was cool. I mostly just cranked Emiliana Torrini albums for the trip down to get psyched for that night. Train trip from Craigieburn to Flinders St took about 45 minutes.

Once I got to the Forum Theater, there was a small line to get in but it moved quick and I was in there in no time. The venue was great, rows of seats at the back, booths in the middle which would be great if you were with a group of mates, and a big floor for standing at the front. I went and got a drink at the bar and sat down at the back for a while until it got closer to the time for Charge Group to start. Made my way down to the front and sat in front of the centre mic with my back against the stage. Turns out a Big Day Out forumer who I had on msn was there but I didn't know that at the time, he was sitting in a couple of metres in front of me while I was waiting for the support act. I hadn't really heard Charge Group before but they were pretty entertaining, I really loved one song in particular that they claimed to be a new one not on their album, so I'll have to hunt that down.


(not my picture)

Emiliana and her band came on at about 9:20 and played til 10:45. Her set was riddled with cheerful banter between each song, most of which was cute or funny, often referring to the Forum Theatre as a stadium (because of the Colosseum-like statues and beams around the venue) and making us sing things back to her. At one point the band started playing a song about three times and she went to start but forgot how the lyrics started and had to ask the crowd. Some guy in the front row, just to the left of me said them and she was like 'Isn't that the second verse?... No wait... you're right." It was cute.

An example of some of the stage banter: http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=iOz60Ejlf2E

The set list was as follows (Blue=Me & Armini. Brown=Fisherman's Woman. Green=Love In The Time of Science.)
Fireheads
Heartstopper
Hold Heart
Life Saver
Today Has Been OK
Sunny Road
Big Jumps
Ha Ha
Me and Armini
Jungle Drum
Birds
Bleeder
Gun
Heard it all Before
Nothing Brings Me Down
Unemployed In Summertime
Fisherman's Woman/Sea People
Beggar's Prayer

I found this from the gig I went to in Melbourne; Sunny Road: http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=4AfwMgMwltc
I'm not sure where this is from but she is wearing the same dress as she was at the forum and it's the same stage set up; Jungle Drum: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJK6Y6oHa2A

So she basically played every song from the new album except for Dead Duck. The good things about this set list were that Fisherman's Woman is probably the album I am into the least (out of it, the new one, Love in the Time of Science and Merman), yet she seemed to play only the songs I love from it, also the new album is great, it was good to see that material played live. The negative thing was that there were no tracks from Merman (my favourite Torrini release) and only one and a half from Love In The Time of Science. The highlight of the set was definitely Jungle Drum, Unemployed In Summertime and Sunny Road along with the between song banter explaining the origin of songs or little stories. It reminded me of the funny stories Sufjan Stevens would tell between songs earlier in the year (except not quite as random and funny). I'd say this definitely goes down in my top five gigs of the year.

Once the set was over, I made my way to the Flinders St station and headed back to Craigieburn. Ride was pretty boring, just chucked on some music on the ipod and almost drifted off to sleep. I chucked the P plates on the car and headed off, it was about 12:15 by then. I got back to Bulla and I think that is where I must have made a wrong turn because I suddenly had no idea where I was going and nothing seemed familiar. Turns out I missed the turn off to Bulla Diggers Rest Rd and ended up in Sunbury and had to ask for directions. I guess next time, just in case, I will bring a road map, but I think now I have been down there and back, I will be able to remember the way. Once I hit the freeway, it was smooth sailing apart from areas thick with fog where I could hardly see shit. Cruising along the Calder Freeway/Highway singing (badly) along to Hanson's 'Middle of Nowhere' and Weezer's 'Blue Album' reminded me of the fun I had driving by myself from Mackay to Bendigo through inland QLD and NSW.

Turns out driving down and back only cost me around $22 for fuel and $5.50 for a return train trip from Craigieburn to Flinders St while taking the train down and back would have cost $30. Bit of a shock that driving was cheaper. Overall it was a pretty fun trip. I'm looking forward to driving down again for the next concert.

6:59AM - Just a thought...

Confessing sins, attending church, saying prayers, etc. are all things that humans who believe in God can do, as well as assume He will listen and take note before they reach the pearly gates to be judged. The rest of God's creatures do not have faith, cannot partake in physical or mental acts of worship, they merely live as God created them. Should this not be what humans should do if they believe and have faith in God? Instead of materializing this faith and belief into worship, false prophets and war?

Followers of God believe that these acts of worship will allow them access to heaven. Somehow this God, whom supposedly loves all his creatures equally, would allow all the species on one planet to ascend to a higher plane and live an afterlife of pure happiness, while one species, humans, have to work for it. One could argue that He gave humans a conscience and this is what makes us better, or more worthy of earning a place in 'heaven', than the rest of God's creatures, but it still doesn't mesh with the theory that God loves all his creatures equally. It seems more like an excuse to reinforce why people need to carry out deeds in God's name and worship the false prophets in their 'sacred' buildings all over the earth.

The idea of believing in and devoting a part of my life towards a supposed higher being that created human life with a predisposition to having to apologize and repent for being humans in the first place while the rest of God's creatures are allowed to kill, mate and act selfishly without consequence, seems irrational and irritates me. All of that is of course looking past the ludicrous and unsupported notion that there is a higher plane and Godly creator to begin with.

2:52AM

Oh hai everyone. I am back, but this post is more in order to keep my gig list in order and remember when tickets go on sale.

31/07 - Tricky - On Sale: 20/06 Prince Bandroom $75 (definately purchasing)
06/08 - Laura Marling - On Sale: Corner Hotel $36
12/08 - Jason Mraz - On Sale: 30/05 Ticketek $62.90
17/08 - Death Cab For Cutie - On Sale: 30/05 Oztix $55 (Purchased)
21/08 - Unwritten Law & Sprung Monkey - On Sale: 05/06 Ticketek $61.30 (Purchased)

22/08 - Beach House - On Sale: ?????????????
26/09 - The Faint - On Sale: 05/06 Ticketek $48.20 (maybe getting free entry)
26/10 - Slipknot - On Sale: ????????????? (definately purchasing)

12:06PM

This will be my last post until I get the internet down in Bendigo, which will probably be no earlier than the 19th of May. Oh dear.

This week has been pretty hectic. Last Friday I went over the Richard's place for a game of Zombies and some drinking. Chilled with Richard, Daniel, Tenielle and Phil. Twas an interesting game. Twas an interesting night. Drinking, gossiping, listening to musix.

Saturday was a lazy day as far as I can remember, hung out with the twins and Richard. Got lunch and such.

Sunday Daniel picked me up and we went to the Sunday sesh at Sails with Tenielle and Phil and met up with Belinda, Ben and Alec there which was cool. It was really fucking busy though so I wasn't so much in my element.

Monday Daniel, Justin, Tenielle, Phill, Belinda and I went to see Iron Man, then went to Maccas and afterwards Daniel, Bel and I went driving around to North Wall and Lamberts Beach and sat around chatting. It was a relaxing night, even if my stupid assignment due the next day was playing on my mind. Spending time with friends before I leave > doing an assignment.

Tuesday and Wednesday was filled with packing and half assed assignment doing. Thursday, the removalist was supposed to come but never did. He is supposed to be here now too but still hasn't arrived. I'm about to go to WOW to get my ipod connector put in my car, go to the uni, postoffice and then to the new place. I am not sure what I am gonna do tomorrow, except I have to put my computer and stereo in my car and probably pack some clothes into a suitcase.

I leave for Bendigo on Sunday and will probably get their either Tuesday night or mid Wednesday if I don't die in a car crash or something before then. I'll be bored so text me heaps :P 0410899879

So yeah, this is me signing off for a while.

xoxo
Timbzy




I'll leave you with my weird dream I had the other night, Bel has already read this, but the rest of you haven't :-)

I was at this music festival, on this massive dock with buildings on it, although there were no timetables or anything so no one knew where to see bands. Belinda, Elisha, Tenielle, Richard, Cole Purdie (wtf) and I were riding around on bicycles and suddenly we hear this band around the corner behind us. Richard is riding his bike like Robin Thicke from that ‘When I Get You Alone’ film clip (check it on youtube haha). Next thing this band is playing while riding their own bikes and we follow them. We realize that at this festival, the bands play random times and they play while moving around the whole festival. The band starts going really fast and none of us can keep up and we all stop at a big set of stairs. A heap of people from school and other people our age I don’t recognize are going up the stairs and Richard, Tenielle and Cole start following. Bel, Elisha and I start talking about me leaving and Elisha says she is worried that without my friends, I probably won’t survive the journey.

At this point the place temporarily turns into a desert and everyone has abandoned the three of us. Elisha starts speaking in tongues and Belinda start crying, but she's completely silent whilst doing it. Suddenly I am pulled backwards like really far til I can’t see Bel or Elisha anymore and I fall into a giant hole in the ground. I keep falling and eventually land at the bottom of the stairs back on the dock, Bel and Elisha are already half way up the stairs beckoning me to follow. I follow them and we eventually enter a classroom.

In the classroom were a bunch of people we went to school with along with Tenielle and Phil and a heap of randoms I don’t know. We all sat down, I sit with Tenielle, Phil and Trent and it is the third last day of school and I was leaving to Adelaide in 2 days time and I kept getting in trouble for singing (not loudly, just humming kinda).

I get moved to the seat next to Belinda and all of a sudden she start belting out Bif Naked’s Lucky Ones (everyone should check that song out, maybe on youtube) and I start singing along and the teachers are yelling at both of us. I get up singing louder and start saying how I am having a mental breakdown and putting on some theatrics for the students and teachers saying I can’t handle this shit anymore (not really, I was just doing it to make a scene) and I start walking out of the classroom and the teacher starts talking about what I am going to do with my college application. I start talking about how Belinda is a witch and it doesn’t matter what they say because she’ll change my marks on my application anyway. She laughs and I start making another scene talking about how it’s true and she should wake up and see what’s going on. Saying things like ‘Why do you think so many people die young in this town?’ and ‘Are you so naïve that you don’t even realise monsters are the ones that keep killing people around here. The death rate in this town is phenomenal.’ I start jumping on desks and tell everyone I will see them before I go and there is this weird strobe light effect happening and when the light flashes, no one in the class has no face. No eyes, nose or mouth. It scares me so I walk out of the room and everyone (somehow with no eyes) watches me as I do.

I wait outside for a while, catching my breath and Tenielle comes out of class not long after me and we start walking down the stairs and she says how weird class was just then and how she loved the singing. For some reason the last set of stairs was blocked off so Tenielle takes the lift and I jump over the barrier and jump down. Before Tenielle gets down in the elevator, Dashboard Prophets’ Ballad for Dead Friends starts playing as I run at the open window and dive out of it into the ocean, only the ocean was black like tar and I started sinking slowly, I could hear voices calling out to me but I couldn’t get out of the water. Eventually my head went under and I couldn’t hear anything anymore except my heart beat and then I woke up.

Someone interpret my dream (I am expecting people to say 'it means you're gay' lololol)

4:21AM - lol

3:47AM

So one of the threads on the Alice In Chains forum asks which 5 albums changed/expanded your taste in music the most and how. Took a while to figure it out but this is what I ended up with:



I was 8 years old when my best mate Sean and I started listening to his dads albums and we used to go nuts, rocking out and annoying his neighbors with the stereo on full. I got In Utero at the same time(within weeks) as Nevermind, Throwing Copper and Superunknown and In Utero was the first one I really loved. It was my gateway to my love of grunge, alt-rock and obsession with the 90s.


Sunny Day Real Estate's Diary was my introduction to emo and made me fall in love with the genre (90s, not so much the 00s stuff). It was a definite bridge into post-hardcore and screamo.


Ani DiFranco didn't necessarily introduce me to folk, but she was the first folk artist I really loved and made me delve further into the genre and listen to artists that fused folk with other genres.


Cannibal Ox's The Cold Vein made me interested in hip hop. Particularly underground and alternative hip hop, but I grew to enjoy other sub-genres, even some of the gangsta variety. The use of abstract lyrics on this album is what initially had my drawn in, because I had only ever heard gangsta rap and there is only so many times you can hear a song about money and hoes without getting bored. This opened my eyes to the many hip hop artists that were doing something different, even intellectual.


For a long time, this album had a sound I didn't know the name of. I knew Hum belonged to the alt-rock/space rock genres, but that constant guitar fuzz that hung in the background throughout these songs was something that appealed to me in a big way. After overplaying this album (and still coming back for more) I finally realized that this was a characteristic of the shoegaze genre. Now it is one of my favourite genres of music, the old (My Bloody Valentine, Lush, Curve) and the new (The Angelic Process, Have A Nice Life, Ports of Call).



I spent most of today sleeping, though I did venture out into the world at about 10am to swap ownership of my car over from Dad to me. We thought it was going to be busy as hell, as the Department of Transport usually is in this shit town, but it wasn't too bad. I said hey to Tenielle who was working there, but dad and I got called to another counter. Managed to get no packing and no assignment work done, which is super awesome (not, I am my own worst enemy). Wednesday night I compiled a dvd full of music for Daniel, Justin, Tenielle, Belinda and Richard that I thought each would enjoy. I am the king of procrastination.

I have plans for Friday, hair cut, bit of shopping, burn a cd of photos for Daniel and go over to Richard's for drinks and stuff with Daniel, Ashley, Tenielle and Phil. Somewhere in there I have to squeeze in some assignment work or some packing. Whichever I weigh up as being the least effort to do.

2:47PM

I had about 3250 albums on my computer the other day which Windows Media Player cataloged and it was beginning to be a bit too much to sift through whenever I wanted to listen to music. The ol' TOO much decision making makes for less fun thing. So I deleted  just over 2000 albums (have backup of all the stuff on an external hdd) and it has made music listening much more fun. Just my favourite albums plus new stuff I need to listen to. Took ages to sort it all out though. Probably should have left it til when I am in Bendigo cause I still have to pack everything up in my room and do an assignment before I leave (and before the removalists come next Wednesday).

You know those people who you add on msn, you don't talk to them unless they talk to you first, and they don't shut the fuck up? It's all blah blah blah me me me blah blah my troubles blah blah... Well that's what I had with a girl from the soundwave forum that I pretty much hated on the forum. Should never have added her tbh but she wanted by email to get details on my address to send me a free cd. But anyway, almost everything said was either her talking about stuff with me showing her my poetry every now and then that I had written back in school. Then she sends me a fucking silver chain for around my wrist on my birthday which is a bit much tbh. After my birthday I went to Bendigo and at night I was bored so I spent most of my time talking to people through text, including her. When I got back to Mackay and talked to her online again, she annoyed me again. So anywho, she started annoying me more and more, constantly talking to me about herself and being a know-it-all and most was about things I wasn't interested in so I blocked her. She whinged to mutual friends and had a big cry and got them to tell me things she said. She made a new account and added me and without knowing, accepted. So I blocked her again after a bit and now she won't stop texting me saying 'she wants to start again' and shit. It's creeping the hell out of me. Now she is saying if I don't talk to her she is going to send me things in the mail til I talk to her again. Lucky my folks move from here in a week and I move in a week and a half, but still... anyone have any experience with stalkers?

I'm about to eat some salt and pepper calamari... yum.

2:54AM - You melt like warm nutella.

So, Saturday the 12th of April I went to the twins 21st. As usual I didn't get dressed up (as usual it was a dress up party). I was toying with the idea of going as God. Getting myself a little name tag saying 'My name is...' and writing 'God' underneath ala Oz from 4th season Buffy. I wasn't feeling very enthused to begin with, not in a sociable or drinking mood, but as I started drinking more and more of my straight Southern Comfort I got happier. Everyone looked pretty cool in their costumes. There was lots of photo taking going on of all the costumes, after a while Daniel gave me a bunch of costume shit, random stuff to throw on, which didn't last cause it was too hot. I don't remember much else other than talking to Belinda for ages in the doorway and making up after we stopped talking over a year prior. So that was a definite positive. Then we annoyed Justin who crashed early and then I went downstairs to drink MOAR with Daniel, Belinda, Richard and Daniel's dad. He mixed some drinks for us which were gross. Then I remember going to bed at some point. Biggest fail at remembering shit. Sunday was lazy, half sleeping, half watching tv.

The start of the week was boring, me being a stupid emo and then Friday was go time. Richard came around to pick me up (yeeeaaaahhhh lol) and we went to the airport and met up with Daniel, Justin, Belinda, Tenielle and Phil. I sat on my lonesome on the plane because I never booked with them. The limo driver was waiting for us and we got out there and there was not enough room for our luggage and it was only a 7 seater, not the 9 seater that was ordered. So I played DJ and put on some tunes for the drive down to the Gold Coast. Went to the hotel, had a nana nap, then made our way to Draculas. Waited outside for a while before going into an entrance filled with coffins, a vampire introduces the place and there is banging on the coffins, people trying to get out, then you walk through a door and go on a ghost ride thing to get to the bar. Had our meals, complete with a chocolate coffin with mint stuff inside for desert. The actual main was shit though. The chicks were hawwwwtttt. In their corsets and costumes and makeup... it was fun to see.

We ordered drinks, which were very awesome, all creepy and such. Kept getting this one that came with a jelly shot inside a syringe, was delicious. The show started and it was really brilliant. Funny, but a lot of the one liners came from those forward emails that used to go around. The first song they did was The Eels - Flyswatter which was fucking cool, then they did Muse's Supermassive Black Hole which was kinda lame cause Muse suck, but kinda cool cause I think the fucked around with some of the lyrics. There were a fair few awesome songs done including a sperm song which included people dressed up as sperm, eggs, there was a giant cock that spat sperm when it sung. Lolz were had. Ended with a Bon Jovi singalong. After that we headed to the casino, continued singing all the way there and got harassed by a security guard. Started sobering so we went inside and I had a couple of shots. I think everyone was fairly mellowed out by this time. Ended up being up $40 or something by the time we left.

The next day was a sleep in day and then Richard and I met the others in town for a haunted house tour. That was fun, not really scary, but fun. Bought a couple of overpriced nick-nacks too. We went out for dinner later that night and spent the rest of the night back at the hotel drinking and chatting. The next day was Dreamworld. Richard stayed behind so there was just the six of us. Didn't go on many rides, have Cartman syndrome, too many fucking people in the lines for rides. Need a theme park to ourselves. Tenielle, Phil and I went on the giant drop (the others were too SCARED haha). We were shitting our pants on the way up, going down was too fast to think and when it was over, I was shaking and shit which was uber fun. Highlight of the day I'd say. That night was more of the drinking in hotel rooms. Ordered in food and it was rubbish. In the end Bel, Richard and I were last ones standing. That night was pretty horrible after I went to bed, couldn't sleep and felt rubbish. Sat up writing for ages.

The next day we got a coach thing back to Brisbane and hung out at the airport, it was just Richard, Bel, Tenielle and Phil because the twins stayed another week for a family thing. Bel bought a Chuck Norris facts book which provided us which much entertainment. After lazing around the terminal for a couple of hours, we made our way onto the plane and got back to Mackay.

When I got back, it was all about doing the assignment which was due Wednesday. Due to lots of awesome procrastination, some of which you've seen in the form of poems posted, I didn't get it sent in til Saturday. Now I have one more to get done before next Monday. Would rather it done before Friday night so Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I am gonna be Captain 'Get Shit Done'.

So does anybody remember Wiley Wiggins? The kid from Dazed and Confused and Waking Life (pretty much the only movies of note on his resume)? If not, here is a picture to jog your memory:

So anyway, I was looking for quotes and came across his AIM thing on his website and now we are facebook buddies :O One of my favourite movies' main actors... yay.

I have to be up around 9:15 to go swap my car rego over and then work at 2pm for 6 hours. Last shift at this store. Trent is so jealous haha. I am not helping my assignment causes atm though, I've just started watching season one of Angel. I think I love Buffy/Angel too much.

1:42AM

Night of snow; a shadowed day,

His tombstone blends into the grey,

Closer now; her sadness grows,

Upon his grave; she leaves a rose,

Left alone; her body falls,

Ghostly sounds; her lover calls,

She looks up; he isn’t there,

A pain she knows she’ll always bear,

Tears don’t mend her broken heart,

Undying love; he did impart,

All that’s left; except regret,

Is suicide; a looming threat,

Not guilt-free; since his demise,

She left him; under blackened skies,

In a trance; she finds a stone,

Jagged edge; deep to the bone,

Pools of blood; they well below,

Weeping wrists; a steady flow,

Final breath; one last goodbye,

A fitting end; a quiet sigh.

1:06AM

I am feeling cornered,

Boxed in,

Reluctant to persevere,

I need to break the box,

Or myself,

“You’re already broken,” I hear.

As the depression overwhelms,

It maintains my stomach turning,

While my chest’s sinking sentiment,

Exacerbates the pain; churning.

Temporary bouts of solace,

Unaffected by my yearning,

End as fast as they appear.

With this poem I’m adjourning,

For a trip to find some final peace,

From which I’m not returning.

7:21AM

So I am feeling better after a couple of days of evil death feeling. But at the same time I am feeling stressed and overtired. I have an assignment due on Wednesday which would be me starting an assignment in record time if it weren't for me leaving at 10am Friday to Brisbane until Monday afternoon. Then I have Monday night, Tuesday and Wednesday morning left. MISSION.

I am going to Brisbane with the gang and then we are catching a limo down to the Gold Coast where we are going to dinner Friday night at Draculas for Daniel and Justin's 21st. Yes they get two parties. Self indulgence ftw. Saturday we are casino'ing it up and I'm mighty keen for some blackjack. The next day is theme park day, I assume it will be dreamworld seeing as that is the only one worth going to.

When I get back and finish this assignment, I think I am gonna try to get the other one due early so I have maximum amount of time to pack and say goodbyes to people before I leave on the 10th of May.

My eyes are currently stinging cause I've been up all night fucking around with research for this assignment and downloading new music. Priorities are as straight as Darren Hayes.

PS. I don't know about you guys, but this separate panel thing for Rich text and HTML is really annoying. They need to bring back just plain of txt and make all those slack cunts who don't know HTML coding have no HTML.

11:27PM - Why?

Great, just fucking great. For the first time in... what feels like forever, but is probably closer to two years, I have that feeling in my chest/stomach. The one that feels like my insides are attacking the part of me that feels pain. It's a deep, hollow kind of sensation, which drags me down into an infinite cycle. The cycle consists of feeling the pain, dwelling on it, realizing I am dwelling and deciding to ignore it, but because I am focused on ignoring it, it gets worse. It’s an enigmatic occurrence where an emotion can cause physical pain. It seems the only way to stop it from happening is to become emotionally involved in a movie or TV show so that I may feel from someone else’s perspective and forget about my own. However, it is only a temporary solution.

4:41PM - Fuck!

I fucking hate being tested for university. I wish they could just ask you what mark you wanted and that's the mark you'd receive. It seems so much easier to me and that's all I care about.

Well the reason for this is that today Richard has graced us with his presence and we are doing our online exams. Three exams each and they are fucking terrible and not helping us learn at all because we are just looking at the fucking index for each question. The real motherfucker is looking for the information that the index refers to. It's shithouse. Well anyway, here is a random sentence from Richard;

"If you are a fan of Timbzy or tumblr then you might be interested in watching channel 9's new hit sporting coverage of QATTA (Queensland Associated Table Tennis Association) admittedly there are a lot of gays and cripples but it delivers a healthy message about teen pregnancy to our children so check it out."

One time I was fighting in World War Two and I stabbed a German person in the scrotum with a Bayonet. It actually sliced the scrotum right off. So as a punishment for trying to kill me I made him eat the uncooked scrotal tissue.

Currently listening to: Dane Cook - Rough Around The Edges

9:40AM

Hum - 'Stars'

Possibly my all-time favourite song ever.

From the album You'd Prefer An Astronaut

12:03AM - I am awesome!

Welcome, sit back and relax as I take you on a journey into the depths of my meandering thoughts. Ready?

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Wasn't that amazing?

Yes. So I don't have much to say at the moment, but a time will come. When it does, I'm sure you'll be blown away.

I decided to use a random recipe online to cook dinner tonight and it turned out amazingly well. It was cranberry lamb steaks with caramelized onion. It was also fucking delicious. I might have to start trying a bunch of recipes to find my favorites so I can get really good at them and impress all the ladies :P

I have an assignment on the go at the moment which is around a half a week overdue and I am finding it really hard to get done. Not because it is too hard, but because it is too boring to spend time on. It is really terrible that I have such little self-control.

Currently listening to: Tunng - Good Arrows

6:46AM - Sleeeeeeeeep!

It's late, well early, but late because I haven't been to sleep yet. Work in 6 hours. Impending doom.

*posts*

I've started on another Buffy marathon, last week I did all 5 seasons of Angel, I think I'll tackle Buffy 6 episodes a day this time around. Give me time to study and get other things done. So I finished 'The Pack' before, great episode. One of my favourites. Evil hyena Xander :D

Sleepy time now.

I'll start posting a bit more now too.

7:01AM - First post in a while..

Well it has been a while since I've used a blog, myspace's blog thing just wasn't that good, so I kind of lost interest after the move from livejournal to myspace. But here I go again, restarting, when I probably should be sleeping.

So over the past week, I've been doing lots of internet shopping for dvds. Managed to refind the website I created an account at last year which I lost when my computer killed my favourites section in IE. The site is Fishpond and if you review an unreviewed dvd, cd or book, you get a small discount. Well now they've added a small discount for linking them to youtube trailers for their movies, so I did a bit of that and currently I'm saving myself $80. Gonna get it to $100 over the next week and then shop away.

Found out that Nas, my favourite hip-hop artist is touring Australia in September, so I am really psyched about that. I was going down to Brissy for Funeral For A Friend and my mom's graduation from the 15th til the 18th of September, but now this thing is on the 22nd so if I go down for it, it'll just be overnight. Gotta figure out whether I want to go to both trips or just Nas because I've already seen Funeral For A Friend. Other thing making me want to do the Funeral trip is that my sister will be down there as part of her birthday present and she wants me to take her drinking, perhaps to the Funeral gig. We'll see. It's not like I don't have the money for both trips seeing as I havent been down to Brissy for a fair while.

Getting really sick of work lately. Over the past 3 months, 5 floor staff have left and they are yet to replace any of them. Darren and I are the only casuals left and we both don't want any more than 15 hours a week while doing uni, but because they don't want more staff, they keep putting us on more hours. Darren is away today and can't work, if I happened to be sick, they would be fucked because there is only one full timer there on a sunday (and they aren't closing). So there would be no one closing which can't happen.

Well I've got work in a 4 of hours, I think I will get a couple more hours sleep...

Current mood: tired

9:55PM

Gold Coast

[11:00 – 11:15] Operator Please (Green Stage)
[11:15 – 11:45] Mammal (Converse Stage)
[12:00 – 12:40] Bowser (Local Produce)
[12:45 – 1:15] Lump (Converse Stage)
[1:15 – 1:45] I <3 Hiroshima (Green Stage)
[1:45 – 2:30] Trivium (Converse Stage)
[2:30 – 3:00] Lunch
[3:00 – 3:45] My Chemical Romance (Main Stage)
[4:00 – 4:30] Peaches (Boiler Room)
[4:30 – 5:15] Spank Rock (Hot House)
[5:30 – 6:30] The Killers (Main Stage)
[6:30 – 7:30] Jet (Main Stage)
Or
[6:30 – 7:00] Something For Kate (Green Stage)
[7:30 – 8:30] Muse (Main Stage)
[8:30 – 10:00] Tool (Main Stage)
[10:00 - 11:00] Crystal Method (Boiler Room)
Or
[8:30 – 9:30] The Presets (Boiler Room)
[9:30 - 11:00] Crystal Method (Boiler Room)


Sydney

[11:00 – 11:45] Laura Imbruglia (Green Stage)
[11:45 – 12:30] Sick Puppies (Main Stage)
Or
[11:45 – 12:30] Devoted Few (Converse Stage)
[12:30 – 1:15] Lunch
[1:15 – 2:00] Trivium (Converse Stage)
[2:00 – 2:40] Something With Numbers (Local Produce)
[2:45 – 3:30] Faker (Converse Stage)
[3:30 – 4:20] My Chemical Romance (Main Stage)
[4:20 – 4:35] Eskimo Joe (Main Stage)
[4:45 – 5:10] Peaches (Boiler Room)
[5:15 – 6:00] Spank Rock (Hot House)
[6:00 – 7:00] Diplo (Hot House)
[7:00 – 7:45] Hot Chip (Hot House)
[7:45 – 8:50] Justice (Boiler Room)
[9:00 – 9:45] Lupe Fiasco (Hot House)
[9:45 – 10:15] The Presets (Boiler Room)
[10:15 – 11:45] Crystal Method (Boiler Room)

This said, I don't like Trivium, but there is nothing else on at those times worth seeing so I will probably wander around during that time instead of seeing Trivium twice. I am stuffed as to what I will do with my three decisions. Only reason I want to stay at main stage for Jet is so I can stay there in a good position for Muse and maybe Tool if I see them. Gosh.

6:53PM

So I have a lot of shit to write about but that can be next entry. This is pretty much just for me to remember which movies I am getting from madman.com.au when they have their $10 dvd sale.

For me:
Cecil B. Demented
Head On
Versus
Alive
Princess Mononoke
My Neighbor Totoro
Azumi
Gerry
Spirited Away
The Apartment
The Escort
Howl's Moving Castle
Amores Perros
Open Your Eyes

Then for Trent:
Princess Mononoke
Azumi
Sympathy For Mr. Vengence
A Bittersweet Life